| Well things have been really strange lately. I haven't really gotten alot of sleep because I'm obsessed with Lineage 2 and stay up until 3 or 4 every night playing, and then I have to get up and be at work by 9:30.
My WONDERFUL girlfriend calls me at 7:30 everymorning, and honestly... that's probably the best part of my day.
Anyway... lack of sleep has caused me to be really emotional. But I have been fairly reflective as of late, which is good because I think it's helping me to remember who I am.
Since I've started working my life has gone haywire. I'm known as the GermanDeli bitch.. basically because everyone says I kiss major ass there. And I really don't. I just do a good job and I'm really nice. Last time I checked, doing your job the best you can isn't sucking up. I sometimes wonder when the free-ride will end because I have slacked off alot lately. Most of the time I just want to go home so I can talk to my girlfriend or mess around on the computer. With school starting soon, I'm going to have even less time... so I don't know what I'm going to do. In alot of ways I wish i didn't have a job anymore. It's really stressful, and I don't like having to get up every single day of the week and having to go in to work. I know it will have to happen sooner or later, but for now I'm tired of it.
Krystal and I will have been together for one year on January 21st, and I'm really stressed about that. I don't know why really... Krystal is an awesome girl and she would probably be happy with a Cracker Jack prize as long as it came from me. I still want to get her something really special, but I just can't seem to find the perfect thing. I'm not only stressed about what to get her, but also the fact that we have been together for a year... with everybody so negative about relationships these days, it's hard not to to be scared that things might be winding down. The more I think about it, the more it seems like things haven't even started yet. I hope that this year will turn out to be only a small percentage of a life-long relationship between her and I. I know that saying something like that is usually considered as impending doom, but screw that. Her and I have been through so much together, I'm not really afraid of a little silly supserstition anymore.
I hope you've taken a moment to really listen to the words in this song, if not, please do. I heard it the other day and it really touched me, because, given I have children in the future, want to be the best daddy ever. And until then, I want to be the best friend, boyfriend, husband there is. Maybe through being the best friend and boyfriend I can show some people a glimpse of what a father should be to his children and his family.
There are few things more precious than a functional, loving, wonderful family, and there are few things taken more for granted.
Anyway, I'm basically falling asleep on the keyboard... which is never good... so I suppose I'll be going. Thanks for listening, Please Comment  |
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